Waiting to get back home..really !!

So being the last day of my stay for this trip, am now getting back to Chennai. I personally feel January to be passing by so slowly. Even Aunty, while speaking to her yesterday said.. 'pah feels like its been a year since you both have left'. Actually even i felt so. You know what, this trip has been little different ...... This time i got to stay with Ruth for 2 and a half days..wow enjoyed.

I did speak in a few churches personally without Uncle. As usual Uncle kept pushing me...and had a wonderful time especially with the youth. These were wonderful thirsty and humble people. God bless them. People kept asking me 'how do you know such fine Hindi being a Tamilian and i answered them..'ask me ..why are you so poor in Tamil being a Tamilian".

" Eppadi unga Hindi yevlo nalla iruke ? Naan sonne....idha kelange...yen unga Tamil yevlo kevlama iruka. "

So climax of my trip ..it's good to count your blessings..!!

1. My visit to see Ruth, it was a desire and a prayer made years ago. Yes, i did meet her last December in Shillong yet staying with her at her place was different.
We had nanny talks. She took me out to the mall. We chatted for hours during the day. She asked me a question, jesse if you are to choose between -
- A loving man and not understanding at all or
- An understanding man and not loving at all ..whom would you choose ? for your partner..
i couldn't choose...she then gave me a live example and then i gave her my answer. She also asked me to choose between
"character, understanding, loving, good looking, settled, bad habits etc....what would my priority be." I was like..ahhhhh wait ..why are you asking me this ? She was like..'jesse .. you would never think about any of these, we know you well....so i need to prepare you'
Truly a nanny... ;) i did give my answer :) We literally had a very good time..!! God bless her.

2. Shhhhh...this will take a little more time. Probably you will not believe it. Yes.... you will not believe it. Those who do read my blogs know that i have quoted two dreams about meeting Bro. Zac Poonen. There were others also. And always in those dreams i would see another brother. Today those dreams are getting fulfilled slowly...Through a very good Brother, a very caring Brother who doesn't know me at all ... And he turned out to be an angel in disguise. As many are very caring people and do offer me help for my future matlab ( you got it right ) This Brother too wanted to help me....probably my posts must have indicated it...as i did not mention anything about this matter to him and he lead me to Bro. Zac and Bro. Zac to Sis Annie. Those who know me well would be able to imagine the heights of my excitement. Yet...wait a minute....God in His mercy, has been working out something in me..and i have become a little sober minded person these days and definitely for good..!!
I am able to see it beautifully how God is working out things.

3. Now the third one, Something has  ignited a spark in Uncle...... Today, he kept speaking about my marriage. He never does that. He was like we will call this Bishop ( a very humble man ...please do not get carried away by the designations) , this Pastor and this Pastor. We will save this for you etc etc..i was amazed within, yet carried out a very normal look outside. BTW, at home we do not have many utensils in case we have guests coming in. Uncle and Aunty are not interested in that. Yet, do not know why..have been buying a lot of things since last year. Just in case. ;) Also, when i was in Shillong, there was a very good shopping complex. I really liked a set of plates. I got 4 to take back to Chennai. Everyone asked me ... 'there are just 3 at home right - Uncle, Aunty and you ? Why FOUR plates... i just smiled !!! :)

4. Yes, and this was reallly good. Uncle's hair had grown long and he asked me to cut it around his ears today. Oh..i enjoyed it.
He too was surprised..how much i was ..into it. I was jumping with joy...!! I do need to soon start my exercise and walking.  Have gained at least 3-4 kilograms without doubt.

So, getting back to Chennai, HOME sweet HOME..!!

When God gives you something that you never even dream to ask Him...............

God’s ways are different indeed !! He knows how to surprise you  - ‘Oh little child of God ;)’

For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways, says the Lord.  For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts. Isaiah 55:8,9

So any idea what am I about to write in this post. Probably this is something I hardly ever expected to come so soon. Of course, I longed for it so much yet, I never knew that it would happen this way. It’s still as if am dreaming about it. Thank You Father.

For those who do not know CFC check out this link and please go through the articles, books and messages…. http://www.cfcindia.com/books

In case you are unable to understand anything said or written in that site please feel free to text me … my cell no is ………. ;) ( I believe you have it )

So, let me give this post a little descriptive look. Thus, I could narrate it well.

31^st Jan 2015, my church had an all night service and I had just arrived from Vellore in the morning ..so I got ready for the service at night. I was supposed to go a bit early coz during the 31^st night service many would come to the church and it so happens that we do not get a proper seat. So I packed my dinner and left for the church at 6:30 pm. We had a blessed service and yes, my Father did speak to me. By 4 am the service got over and I was back home.

I slept from 4am to 7:30 am, and began planning the rest of the day. It was a New year day, and I had requested something …a favor from Uncle, it’s the grace of God how things had turned out due to something Aunty had spoken to us the previous week. God helped me to grab the opportunity ….

So, as I am a person who plan things ahead, I had already acquired the venue and timing of the CFC meeting for the 1^st of Jan. I was not very sure if things would turn out well. Also, I kept beating my excitement antennae each time it tried dreaming about my first step into CFC. I willfully kept a sober thought about this thing. So, Aunty was supposed to come with me. We got delayed and somehow managed to get an auto to that place. We were advised to get our vehicle by that Brother as there was lots of parking place, yet ‘ jesse and driving with Aunty ?’ …… would Aunty allow that ?

We had a pretty long journey. We entered into the street. I was given two landmarks. Yes, the church was pretty far away…..deep inside…..at two or three instance we weren’t sure if we were heading to the right place. We thought of calling the Brother who had guided me, yet we were late now, and it would not have been appropriate to call him.  So we somehow managed to get there and ………….

Henceforth … I was as if it was all a dream. I am not exaggerating …!! It was great. I could listen to a song being sung..i immediately jumped out of the auto and peeped into the meeting place.

“Oh..no it was packed …!! I wouldn’t get a place to sit !!” Yet I was determined…!! Does jesse give up so easily…. ;)

So, I entered in bypassing a few believers. There was a Brother who was busy repairing an electrical switch. “Excuse me brother, we have come here for the first time. Could you arrange for us a seat please?’ Aunty had entered in by then. When Aunty saw this Brother…they recognized each other…he was the husband of Aunty’s colleague. So, great…..seat with recommendation… ;) just kidding…he would have done it even if he did not know us. So he directed us to a Sister. She lead us inside and prepared  a place on the mat to sit..i was fine yet Aunty would not be able to sit on the floor  so I requested a seat for Aunty. And there….’ Wow again’ another friend…Aunty met with another Sister who was her Sunday school student in CSI. I quietly stood as it was the ‘praise and thanksgiving’ time.

I would like to go more in detail yet I think I should make it more precise. I was still in my dream world…I did not expect to see any known face…I actually did not even desire it either…all I wanted was to ‘ attend my first CFC meeting’. It was a long praise and worship. I was surprised that many common songs were sung. After returning home, I even shared this thing with Uncle. Then we all sat. And a Brother shared the Word. Atleast 3-4 times this thought came appearing in my mind..”what if this was not CFC?” As we did not ask anyone in specific. I looked around. There was a familiar poster on the pulpit. The Brother who was sharing seemed to have a familiar face yet I wasn’t sure. Then all of a sudden, I noticed that he had made a quote on ‘Tozer’ ……. ahhhhh now I was sure this was CFC. Later he quoted Bro.Zac too. I was blessed. Yet I was still numb … kind of a strange feeling… cannot explain by mere words….probably no one can imagine….how God was fulfilling a dream and a desire so dear to me that I had never even dared to pray about it. That’s why I began this post with this
            God’s ways are different indeed !! He knows how to surprise you little child of God ;)

At this moment, even as I am typing this post…I am controlling my emotions from flooding out. “Father….i simply cannot express my thankfulness to what You just gave me today.”

So…where was i….? yes, the message..!!! When the Brother completed his message..he asked us to stand..and poor jesse…having sat on the floor for a long time, without shifting the leg position, my legs had grown numb. I would have changed my leg position yet I was little cautious…come on,  it was for the first time I was there. A kutti boy just in front of me kept staring at me…as I was opening my English Bible…he was all the while drawing something in his book. Now, how could I change my position and so I just sat in that position the whole time. And when I stood…I almost lost my balance. I held on to a sister next to me..and whispered slowly….’ Maa… kaal marithpoyithchi’ did you understand what I just typed…? Don’t worry even those who know Tamil wouldn’t have… ;) ‘ my legs have become numb…sister’…!! You know what happened next, this sweet little sister..bent down and massaged my feet. I resisted ..yet she continued ..i thanked her. Then …we sat..and I just knew what that Brother would announce next. Yessssssssssssssssssss

“Those who have come for the first time..could you stand plizzz”….i looked at Aunty…she nodded and I stood. The sister who just helped me with my extreme leg numbness also stood..even Aunty was standing by then…..everyone turned back and looked …I felt little nervous…yet, i looked straight to the Brother. So the service got over.

Aunty was busy chatting with her friends and I signaled Aunty that we need to meet the Brother whom I had called the other day. We just came to know that he was the same person who had given the Word of God. So we went to him. He came smiling, he recognized me..and asked me why I did not call him for the direction. I told him that we had thought it would disturb him. He told me that he had kept the phone in general mode just for me and expected me to call..later he had given the phone to his son telling him a sister would call. Anyways, we spoke a little…Aunty’s Sunday school student also spoke a few words to him about Aunty and I asked him to pray for us. He introduced us to another sister and insisted on having lunch. So, we met Aunty’s collegue and we explained we couldn’t wait. We were offered a vehicle to be dropped to the station as it would be impossible to catch an auto as the main road was far far away.

 Meanwhile .......come on…this is CFC, I should know a few faces. So, I recognized a Girl who just passed me…then another Sister who was sitting on the mat. At a distance there was another Sister…I knew her very well…!! I was still numb…!! I went and introduced myself ..she was shocked that I had known her name…we spoke a few words and I  left. I felt like I was at home….actually it was still like a dream..!!

Meanwhile my dear Aunty was busy doing her favourite discussion…yes yes…you guessed it right..!! She was speaking to her collogue about me and we were lead to her husband…who usually helped many in this matter. He inquired about me…and Aunty spoke on my behalf. Aunty’s colleague had asked her son to drop us to the station…( a very hilarious journey…) and after exchanging numbers …. we got into the car and headed home.

You know what? It’s not me..!!It’s really not me..!! Am I behaving like the normal jesse ? Usually I would be floating into the C9  experience after anything of this kind would happen in my life…….yet I feel so starnge…like a dream..trully…!!

Thank You Father..for everything..You just gave me something that I did not even dare to ask You…!!

             You are so good to me…!! Trust God my dear friends....He is soo good !!