Waiting to get back home..really !!

So being the last day of my stay for this trip, am now getting back to Chennai. I personally feel January to be passing by so slowly. Even Aunty, while speaking to her yesterday said.. 'pah feels like its been a year since you both have left'. Actually even i felt so. You know what, this trip has been little different ...... This time i got to stay with Ruth for 2 and a half days..wow enjoyed.

I did speak in a few churches personally without Uncle. As usual Uncle kept pushing me...and had a wonderful time especially with the youth. These were wonderful thirsty and humble people. God bless them. People kept asking me 'how do you know such fine Hindi being a Tamilian and i answered them..'ask me ..why are you so poor in Tamil being a Tamilian".

" Eppadi unga Hindi yevlo nalla iruke ? Naan sonne....idha kelange...yen unga Tamil yevlo kevlama iruka. "

So climax of my trip ..it's good to count your blessings..!!

1. My visit to see Ruth, it was a desire and a prayer made years ago. Yes, i did meet her last December in Shillong yet staying with her at her place was different.
We had nanny talks. She took me out to the mall. We chatted for hours during the day. She asked me a question, jesse if you are to choose between -
- A loving man and not understanding at all or
- An understanding man and not loving at all ..whom would you choose ? for your partner..
i couldn't choose...she then gave me a live example and then i gave her my answer. She also asked me to choose between
"character, understanding, loving, good looking, settled, bad habits etc....what would my priority be." I was like..ahhhhh wait ..why are you asking me this ? She was like..'jesse .. you would never think about any of these, we know you well....so i need to prepare you'
Truly a nanny... ;) i did give my answer :) We literally had a very good time..!! God bless her.

2. Shhhhh...this will take a little more time. Probably you will not believe it. Yes.... you will not believe it. Those who do read my blogs know that i have quoted two dreams about meeting Bro. Zac Poonen. There were others also. And always in those dreams i would see another brother. Today those dreams are getting fulfilled slowly...Through a very good Brother, a very caring Brother who doesn't know me at all ... And he turned out to be an angel in disguise. As many are very caring people and do offer me help for my future matlab ( you got it right ) This Brother too wanted to help me....probably my posts must have indicated it...as i did not mention anything about this matter to him and he lead me to Bro. Zac and Bro. Zac to Sis Annie. Those who know me well would be able to imagine the heights of my excitement. Yet...wait a minute....God in His mercy, has been working out something in me..and i have become a little sober minded person these days and definitely for good..!!
I am able to see it beautifully how God is working out things.

3. Now the third one, Something has  ignited a spark in Uncle...... Today, he kept speaking about my marriage. He never does that. He was like we will call this Bishop ( a very humble man ...please do not get carried away by the designations) , this Pastor and this Pastor. We will save this for you etc etc..i was amazed within, yet carried out a very normal look outside. BTW, at home we do not have many utensils in case we have guests coming in. Uncle and Aunty are not interested in that. Yet, do not know why..have been buying a lot of things since last year. Just in case. ;) Also, when i was in Shillong, there was a very good shopping complex. I really liked a set of plates. I got 4 to take back to Chennai. Everyone asked me ... 'there are just 3 at home right - Uncle, Aunty and you ? Why FOUR plates... i just smiled !!! :)

4. Yes, and this was reallly good. Uncle's hair had grown long and he asked me to cut it around his ears today. Oh..i enjoyed it.
He too was surprised..how much i was ..into it. I was jumping with joy...!! I do need to soon start my exercise and walking.  Have gained at least 3-4 kilograms without doubt.

So, getting back to Chennai, HOME sweet HOME..!!

When God gives you something that you never even dream to ask Him...............

God’s ways are different indeed !! He knows how to surprise you  - ‘Oh little child of God ;)’

For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways, says the Lord.  For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts. Isaiah 55:8,9

So any idea what am I about to write in this post. Probably this is something I hardly ever expected to come so soon. Of course, I longed for it so much yet, I never knew that it would happen this way. It’s still as if am dreaming about it. Thank You Father.

For those who do not know CFC check out this link and please go through the articles, books and messages…. http://www.cfcindia.com/books

In case you are unable to understand anything said or written in that site please feel free to text me … my cell no is ………. ;) ( I believe you have it )

So, let me give this post a little descriptive look. Thus, I could narrate it well.

31^st Jan 2015, my church had an all night service and I had just arrived from Vellore in the morning ..so I got ready for the service at night. I was supposed to go a bit early coz during the 31^st night service many would come to the church and it so happens that we do not get a proper seat. So I packed my dinner and left for the church at 6:30 pm. We had a blessed service and yes, my Father did speak to me. By 4 am the service got over and I was back home.

I slept from 4am to 7:30 am, and began planning the rest of the day. It was a New year day, and I had requested something …a favor from Uncle, it’s the grace of God how things had turned out due to something Aunty had spoken to us the previous week. God helped me to grab the opportunity ….

So, as I am a person who plan things ahead, I had already acquired the venue and timing of the CFC meeting for the 1^st of Jan. I was not very sure if things would turn out well. Also, I kept beating my excitement antennae each time it tried dreaming about my first step into CFC. I willfully kept a sober thought about this thing. So, Aunty was supposed to come with me. We got delayed and somehow managed to get an auto to that place. We were advised to get our vehicle by that Brother as there was lots of parking place, yet ‘ jesse and driving with Aunty ?’ …… would Aunty allow that ?

We had a pretty long journey. We entered into the street. I was given two landmarks. Yes, the church was pretty far away…..deep inside…..at two or three instance we weren’t sure if we were heading to the right place. We thought of calling the Brother who had guided me, yet we were late now, and it would not have been appropriate to call him.  So we somehow managed to get there and ………….

Henceforth … I was as if it was all a dream. I am not exaggerating …!! It was great. I could listen to a song being sung..i immediately jumped out of the auto and peeped into the meeting place.

“Oh..no it was packed …!! I wouldn’t get a place to sit !!” Yet I was determined…!! Does jesse give up so easily…. ;)

So, I entered in bypassing a few believers. There was a Brother who was busy repairing an electrical switch. “Excuse me brother, we have come here for the first time. Could you arrange for us a seat please?’ Aunty had entered in by then. When Aunty saw this Brother…they recognized each other…he was the husband of Aunty’s colleague. So, great…..seat with recommendation… ;) just kidding…he would have done it even if he did not know us. So he directed us to a Sister. She lead us inside and prepared  a place on the mat to sit..i was fine yet Aunty would not be able to sit on the floor  so I requested a seat for Aunty. And there….’ Wow again’ another friend…Aunty met with another Sister who was her Sunday school student in CSI. I quietly stood as it was the ‘praise and thanksgiving’ time.

I would like to go more in detail yet I think I should make it more precise. I was still in my dream world…I did not expect to see any known face…I actually did not even desire it either…all I wanted was to ‘ attend my first CFC meeting’. It was a long praise and worship. I was surprised that many common songs were sung. After returning home, I even shared this thing with Uncle. Then we all sat. And a Brother shared the Word. Atleast 3-4 times this thought came appearing in my mind..”what if this was not CFC?” As we did not ask anyone in specific. I looked around. There was a familiar poster on the pulpit. The Brother who was sharing seemed to have a familiar face yet I wasn’t sure. Then all of a sudden, I noticed that he had made a quote on ‘Tozer’ ……. ahhhhh now I was sure this was CFC. Later he quoted Bro.Zac too. I was blessed. Yet I was still numb … kind of a strange feeling… cannot explain by mere words….probably no one can imagine….how God was fulfilling a dream and a desire so dear to me that I had never even dared to pray about it. That’s why I began this post with this
            God’s ways are different indeed !! He knows how to surprise you little child of God ;)

At this moment, even as I am typing this post…I am controlling my emotions from flooding out. “Father….i simply cannot express my thankfulness to what You just gave me today.”

So…where was i….? yes, the message..!!! When the Brother completed his message..he asked us to stand..and poor jesse…having sat on the floor for a long time, without shifting the leg position, my legs had grown numb. I would have changed my leg position yet I was little cautious…come on,  it was for the first time I was there. A kutti boy just in front of me kept staring at me…as I was opening my English Bible…he was all the while drawing something in his book. Now, how could I change my position and so I just sat in that position the whole time. And when I stood…I almost lost my balance. I held on to a sister next to me..and whispered slowly….’ Maa… kaal marithpoyithchi’ did you understand what I just typed…? Don’t worry even those who know Tamil wouldn’t have… ;) ‘ my legs have become numb…sister’…!! You know what happened next, this sweet little sister..bent down and massaged my feet. I resisted ..yet she continued ..i thanked her. Then …we sat..and I just knew what that Brother would announce next. Yessssssssssssssssssss

“Those who have come for the first time..could you stand plizzz”….i looked at Aunty…she nodded and I stood. The sister who just helped me with my extreme leg numbness also stood..even Aunty was standing by then…..everyone turned back and looked …I felt little nervous…yet, i looked straight to the Brother. So the service got over.

Aunty was busy chatting with her friends and I signaled Aunty that we need to meet the Brother whom I had called the other day. We just came to know that he was the same person who had given the Word of God. So we went to him. He came smiling, he recognized me..and asked me why I did not call him for the direction. I told him that we had thought it would disturb him. He told me that he had kept the phone in general mode just for me and expected me to call..later he had given the phone to his son telling him a sister would call. Anyways, we spoke a little…Aunty’s Sunday school student also spoke a few words to him about Aunty and I asked him to pray for us. He introduced us to another sister and insisted on having lunch. So, we met Aunty’s collegue and we explained we couldn’t wait. We were offered a vehicle to be dropped to the station as it would be impossible to catch an auto as the main road was far far away.

 Meanwhile .......come on…this is CFC, I should know a few faces. So, I recognized a Girl who just passed me…then another Sister who was sitting on the mat. At a distance there was another Sister…I knew her very well…!! I was still numb…!! I went and introduced myself ..she was shocked that I had known her name…we spoke a few words and I  left. I felt like I was at home….actually it was still like a dream..!!

Meanwhile my dear Aunty was busy doing her favourite discussion…yes yes…you guessed it right..!! She was speaking to her collogue about me and we were lead to her husband…who usually helped many in this matter. He inquired about me…and Aunty spoke on my behalf. Aunty’s colleague had asked her son to drop us to the station…( a very hilarious journey…) and after exchanging numbers …. we got into the car and headed home.

You know what? It’s not me..!!It’s really not me..!! Am I behaving like the normal jesse ? Usually I would be floating into the C9  experience after anything of this kind would happen in my life…….yet I feel so starnge…like a dream..trully…!!

Thank You Father..for everything..You just gave me something that I did not even dare to ask You…!!

             You are so good to me…!! Trust God my dear friends....He is soo good !! 

So almost to the end of this year.....!!

So almost to the end of this year and probably this could be my last post...!!

It is good to look back and see all the marvelous things God had done for us this year....!!
Now what about the things you hoped for ? The things that remained unfulfilled !! Do you get angry at God or some person? What about when people much resembling to the friends of Job come and test you saying .. " God doesn't love you, that's why ....!!" or ' you had mistaken the voice of God..!'
Doesn't it hurt when something like this is said...and you have no answer to give?
 
Once a Pastor from our church had a major accident. The driver had run the car over the median and the window glass cracked and injured the Pastor who was sitting there..He had some injuries on his face and knees..etc..He was bed ridden..a hip dislocation also if i am not wrong. We had gone to see him and he asked Uncle..what do you think about this Pastor Ayya? Some say this accident was to test me, some say to prune me, some say it was the work of the devil and still some say that i had committed a sin !!

I personally write blogs not that people should read it..it's my soul speaking to me. It's my Soul's ECG. So,...let me tell you what i could share about what i feel...my perspective ....

Yes, even when i look back to this year. It was a significant year in many ways. God taught me many things..Yes, even i had hoped for some things which did not take place. Part of the certainty has gone away and so are some C9 experiences. Same with you isn't it ? :) God is not partial towards anyone..
Now do you want to remain hooked up by these things.... !! NOOO... move on.. It's a brighter morning today...!! Remember one thing in life...

 ' I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have [perfect] peace and confidence. In the world you have tribulation and trials and distress and frustration; but be of good cheer [take courage; be confident, certain, undaunted]! For I have overcome the world. [I have deprived it of power to harm you and have conquered it for you.]' John 16:33
The promise is...'in Jesus our peace...not in the world'..!! I personally need to run to this verse almost 4-5 times in a week. Trust me... Hope is what sustains me. My hope in Jesus...!! The world will one day fade away and all the other things ..yet His word will remain forever !!

You know what...while many people suffered a lot during these floods...as a family we did not loose anything .... So should i bounce and shout .. "Hallelujah ... God loves me so much that He kept away the affects of the flood from me" ?

RUBBISH !! I have to use this coarse word here...!! We are blind...!! If this was true..thousands of people - didn't God love them ? Of course He did....those who lost their lives ....it was because they were sinners is it ? Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo !! Keep away such thoughts  from your mind....!!
" I don't become a Saint if only good things happen to me and no one becomes a sinner if bad things happen to them. BTW..who is the judge here ... to see if a thing is "good or bad"... !! Remember our sight is limited and we are mortal beings.

Recently was going through a p interest link  and read this inspirational quote and yes ..it was very effective

" DO NOT JUDGE , You DON'T KNOW WHAT STORM I HAVE ASKED HER TO WALK THROUGH - GOD"

So.... this is how i love to express my thoughts ..!!
I deeply respect every child of God because "as i am so are they to God". I am no superior...!!
Finally this link sums it up ( *** while you read the lyrics ..please note it's He and Him not he /him )
 https://youtu.be/cbci49bGwcc

Hoping for a new grace the coming year :)
Thank you...
God bless you !!

Yes...i am SINGLE.......yet.......................................!!

I am speaking from my heart here…not intended to anyone in specific…!!

I wish every ‘Status’ column had this category included in…

“SINGLE yet unavailable !!!”

Got the point ? No…!! Let me explain….!!

As soon as one states that they are single…the immediate reaction is that she/he is available !! That’s how people think and even behave accordingly today..!

Relationship..!! hmmm….yes, I have something to share here…!!

My strong convictions!!!

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-  - Relationship without Commitment is a ship without a Rudder..!!

     Can you believe ….a person of another faith, stated this to me when we had a discussion once…..!

- - good choice is not equal to God’s Choice ……!!

                                “Oh jesse, he is soo good !”

                                 So ?? Is he God’s choice ? Come on….!!

- - I am not seeking after true love only !!

                  A person might claim he truly loves me….. that’s deceptive…………..!! Love grows…!! When Isaac saw Rebekah for the first time….he loved her….He knew that she was the one and their love grew from there…….!!

I have witnessed numerous happy and really blessed marriages that were ‘arranged’ …!!!  No, by this I do not mean am against love marriages….! God has both ways..!

-  

  - He is soooo gifted !!

Oh..in that case I might probably go to a stationary shop and get one for myself. I don’t want to marry a Christmas tree ;)

  - And yes…a very BIG yes….. i strongly forbid anyone calling me by ‘pet names’ that is reserved only for my One…!!

Yes…  have politely told people to restrain from giving me any pronouns like dear, etc etc … cause I personally wouldn’t  accept it from any guy!!  ( this is my personal conviction….you can have yours…)

 

-        And the list goes on…………………..!!!

Thanks to a couple of good..really generous friends of mine who have added me into various groups …. Naaa…. That wasn’t intentional…..hope so…!!!

I have been asked a lot of questions…on this topic…!!! Probably this reply …. keeps everyone away ;)

                            “Am single yet unavailable”

An announcement finally made !!

You know what, sometimes, when i write things for my blog, i get butterflies in my tummy. Seriously !! Today, let me share something about my MOP college life.. I have spoken a lot about WCC yet hardly ever about MOP.
Now, probably i was among the quietest girl in the group, as i did not have many things in common with the rest of my classmates. It must have been hard for them to be friendly with me. They were a group of naughty...trust me......very naughty girls..!!

So, i was known as the balabrahmachari there !! How did i get that ..it happened during our college tour to Cochin. hhaaa..that was really funny. The tour coordinators had booked a hotel for the three departments and that was the  (Mass Communication, Media management and Broadcast..something ..) Fine, the funniest part was..there was a bar at the ground floor of the hotel and my naughty friends would peep from above to see what was going on downstairs.

Now one final day..these girls had decided to go down and get into the bar and see what was going on inside and three of us were left in the room all by ourselves in the first floor. On their way these naughty girls had knocked at one of the door of another room which happened to be of a group of boys at the ground floor. After half an hour, when just three of us were in the room. I was in the hall room and the other two inside the bedroom. The doors were just shut and not bolted and there was this guy who so easily tip toed inside our room. I sensed some kind of a sound and looked behind me..almost about to scream. On seeing me ..... he apologized and said that he had come in by mistake...and i as '...' as i was..said ..ok!!..no problem..!!! It didn't click me at all. I did not understand what was happening!! He was still inside the hall room and then a girl from another department noticed him inside the room and on seeing him..she shouted..scolded and chased him outside. I was standing there like a statue and pillar ...... not even realizing what was happening..!! After 5 minute or so all my class girls had come in on hearing the shout and scream. This girl explained the situation to them and even narrated how jesse had reacted to the situation..They were like 'jesse...!!" i told them..i thought he had come in by mistake ..!!

It was then that we had a round table conference and they all came to me with this question..'jesse are you going to marry ?' You...girl!!
I told them 'no..! i wasn't !!! They tried convincing me ..... what if you get someone just like you....someone who loves God dearly..will you not consider..this was asked by Khadija..i replied..nothing doing 'NO'.


Why was i so sure about that ?

When i was in my first or second year in WCC. Uncle and i, had gone for a meeting in Velacherry...after the meeting..we were staying with a couple..the girl was a friend of mine.. as  i noticed that my friend was now married.....a sudden question arose in my heart.....probably that was
the first time....' I asked the Lord......Lord what about my future ?' and then as i was reading the word of God...i was lead to the verse in Jeremiah 16:2
Thou shalt not take thee a wife, neither shalt thou have sons or daughters in this place.

That's it....it was from then i believed God wanted me to remain single..i believed it was His will..not just that... as You all must be knowing by now...am a big dreamer..so until then ..or maybe for another 2-3 years from then ...all the dreams i ever had about my marriage would be incomplete..somehow ..it wouldn't lead to marriage at all..in all my dreams 100 % of them..so i was so sure that God wanted me to remain single..!!

And thank God that guarded me during the 3-4 years of my college life..!! Thank You Father !!

So i tried explaining this to my MOP friends and they stopped nagging me  since then..and never pulled me into any adult talk !!

So now it's been nearly 3 years....as God has been leading me in a different way and now am convinced that God's will for my future is to marry and not to remain single. I  realized that this decision of mine wasn't shared with my MOP friends except for one of my closest friend. So how
should i break this news ? I had an opportunity two months ago..yet i didn't have the guts to do so then...yet somehow today when a friend was sharing about her pregnancy news...i thought this was THE time and i let it out..let's see the reaction..probably they seem to be excited as if everything is already fixed!! .....Anyways!! Sweet friends indeed!!

Jesse: @ Khadija especially... :) I was wrong...bout my future... I am considering marriage and I believe in ...............................!!
Jesse: Just wanted to let You all know ...coz I don't want to give you all a shock
Jesse: When the time comes :)

Niloufar: Lol Jesse I always knew u would get married :)
Jesse: :)
Jesse: I myself didn't know that
Niloufar: Yes I think u surprised urself😝
Jesse: Ha ha ha
Jesse: Whah
Jesse: What a statement !!

Akila: Yea even i thought jesse would get married sometime..
Niloufar:  I think most of us knew that
Jesse: OK ok
Niloufar:  I'm guessing u found someone worth changing ur mind jesse
Jesse: I am relieved then !!
Jesse: Maybe or maybe not
Jesse: ;)
Niloufar: Okkk as usual we know the answer
Jesse: Ha ha ha

Madhu: Share pic jes
Jesse: Arey
Jesse: Nothing like that
Madhu: V don want surprises in seeing him
Jesse: No no nothing like that
Niloufar:Haha
Niloufar:Jesse is gonna kill me. Lol
Jesse: Why
Madhu: Y u r yet to propose him???
Jesse: Madhu romba advance poyite
Madhu: ................ den t means u found someone
Jesse: Wait and see
Madhu: It's oki.... tell off
Madhu: Oki in dat case tell me where ll d marriage happen
Jesse: Should be in chennai
Jesse: Coz  I am from here
Madhu: Perfect

Nandini: Oh my god Jessie I couldn't believe my eyes
Nandini: I am very happy for you
Cibiya: Happy for u Jesse !! Nice to hear that frm u
Where u now ?
Nandini: We are all looking forward for your your wedding jess

Tanuja: Wow
Tanuja: This is amazing news jesse
Tanuja: Very happy
Tanuja: We should all meet up sometime
Tanuja: Been so long

Khadija:Guys pls give me some breathing space....to many news in one day....but good to hear all the good news.... Hope we gave a lot more for this group...
Congratulations Jesse....
Maya: Thank me I put the first msg in the group by saying happy birthday


So this was a glimpse into it..my dear friends wished me as if i was announcing  my marriage date ;)
Funny..anyways..to summon up...let me share a very very strange and yes confidential..dream( now..it will no longer remain so)

This dream is dated  3rd June..2014!! Let me try to quote the exact words from my diary ...... BTW somethings i wouldn't reveal as of now !! ;)

"I saw a dream....there was this man...definitely .....looking and all i remember was his father also..... ...!! This boy was supposed to ........ am not sure yet i used to marry him ..... and i remember...........( i remember that the people around me..probably from my husband's side were staring at me...) i remember getting down the building (or church) and my husband was missing...everyone
around  considered me to be a very immature girl..they were all staring at me!!!!  They considered Mercy to be smart. So, we ( Mercy,Ruth and i) were waiting for  my husband to come and pick us up. So my husband comes in his car and picks us up.... all of us..and before that he goes and gets a book for Mercy about 'single hood ' or something.........................Then he calls me for help if i wished to. In my dream i realized that he wanted to give me responsibility  ................. In my dream - in my heart - i  loved him and he too was a very good man !! Such a strange dream....first time ever...i was already married in my dream..!!" When i woke up that morning...i had a very light feeling...a sense of joy and ease !!


Strange and really strange..!!! Anyways...that's it...... my work is done..have announced it....at least now..!!! it's never too late !!!

will you leave them - JUST LIKE THAT ?

And the Lord said, I have surely seen the affliction of My people who are in Egypt, and have heard their cry because of their taskmasters and oppressors; for I know their sorrows and sufferings and trials.

                                                                                                                                                         Exodus 3:7

The earth is His..and so are the people !! It was His grace that saved us, it was His grace that we were born into a believing family, it was His grace that we heard the Truth, it was His grace that even though we had fallen a number of times, sometimes into ugly filth - He lifted us !! It was His grace. 

If it was His GRACE then .............

I heard this once from Bro. Zac Poonen…

Think of this – there are people you know in this world, whom no body else knows!!

Those are the people whom God wants you – to encourage, challenge and build up.

Not just this, I know it’s time to help others…eating, eating and eating will only make me fat !!

This was not the case some 3-4 years ago. I used to fear that having a discussion with a person who is not saved would make me alike ( such a selfish thought or maybe I wasn’t ready then.)

Today ‘the tug of war’ is stronger on my side!!! I have a SUPER CHAMPION with me ;) !!

Unlike many believers, I had the opportunity to live in an atmosphere where I was the only Christian!!( just by name then) I was far from Christ. When God saved me, I was still vulnerable .. He had given me the strength yet I needed another touch. So, I really thank God for the guardian He provided me. Guardian over my soul…tough like an iron. I needed it !! Yes …. it’s true!! I had to undergo strict discipline which was bitter then, yet today I praise God. Thank You Lord. The world outside just saw the iron fence that was around me yet God was tenderly sowing seeds of fruits and flowers around me ..  unseen to many eyes !!

Today…now…having received light, I think it’s time to help others see it. Recently, I have been thinking a lot about my friends – some of them are too good and how could I leave them into the snare of the satan. I don’t mind if they tag me as one who wants to convert them – all I wish for them is that they too be a partaker of the joy the Lord has given me and is continuing to do even more!!!

This wonderful classmate of mine ( hope he doesn’t get angry when he reads this as I am about to leak a few lines of our conversation … :)

Jesse: Why don't u do certain things which U know u shouldn't

Jesse: What stops u

Jesse: Its Ur opinion I am asking

Sameer: Self control

Jesse: U cud explain with an example

Jesse: No why U don't do it??

Sameer: Alcohol

Jesse: Ok

Jesse: Why U don't do it?

Sameer: i have seen ppl being good and ppl with worse health condn

Jesse: Hmmm

Jesse: So for ur own hood

Jesse: Good

Sameer: ya

Jesse: U choose to do something and leave out others

Jesse: OK then pornography

Jesse: What's harm in that

Sameer: Porno is not harm

Sameer: even infact its good if its a healthy. way

Jesse: Hmmm

Sameer: I am never interested

Jesse: Then why do ppl feel bad after doing it

Sameer: its just a temporary rush of things

Jesse: Hmmm

Jesse: Thanks

Sameer: once we get busy...we won't think about

Jesse: Just wanted to have Ur views

Sameer: ya

Sameer: Nothing is bad, provided we know it's limits

Jesse: Who sets the limits

Jesse: …………. Murder??

Jesse: Adultery??

Jesse: ;)

Sameer: Adultery is Sin

Sameer: So as. Murder

Jesse: Sin ??

Jesse: Am I hearing it properly ??

Sameer: We have no rights to take a life which god has given

Sameer: yea

Jesse: Then coming back

Sameer: Sin as in paavam...as in paap

Jesse: We have no right to be a partaker of the exploit a girl is going thru in pornography

Jesse: She could be forced or she could have done it for a need

Jesse: Isn't it like a man who goes to the prostitute

Jesse: Just that here its psychological pleasure

Jesse: There its physical

Jesse: Hmmm

Jesse: And Drinking

Jesse: Drinking…!! How do we have the right to destroy the life God has given   

      us ??

Jesse: One's own life !!

What are we doing with the light God has given us ? Keeping it under the bushel is it ? There are many out there who would 

support what this boy just shared, if you are there would you voice what God has to say ? or 

Would you sneak out quietly thinking that he would misunderstand you. I think that I love my classmates at least this much that 

I don’t desire to see them perishing in this world without having tasted -  how good my Lord is !!! It is uncomfortable ..yes it is….for a

person like me..it is very much uncomfortable..!! Yet...if  you believe we are living in the last days..will you leave them

 JUST LIKE THAT ?

Help them !!! Help !! That’s all is required 

( … if you have just read this, I have reproduced the conversation just to help someone…I hope that’s fine with you :) !!)