Jesus is a person !!!!

Yes !! Jesus is God and yet He is a person.... How can i treat Him as if He doesn't exist or as if He is only an 'On Demand Aladdin Genie'. No! not so!!

First of all, i have to myself repent of all the numerous occasions when i did not show Him the due respect that i would have easily shown to any person whether known or unknown.

For example when we speak to someone or even message someone, do we abruptly stop the conversation and get ourselves involved into something else .. No !!

We all have the courtesy to at least end the conversation by saying a 'Bye' or 'take care'. Yet when it comes to Jesus, we have taken things for granted. "If you will not consider Him as a person, He will also not be revealed to you as a person".

That was the mistake i was making for many years..i have innocently even cried in the name of Jesus...

Holy Spirit i know You..i can hear Your voice daily...!

Father i know You...i am witnessing Your love daily..!

Jesus..i don't know You as i should or as i see other Godly men and women do ...!!

Oh!! He never revealed Himself to me as a person because i never considered Him to be one..He was only God to me...By this i mean i knew that He was a person too..yet i never practiced it.

I never gave Him my daily 'Good mornings..' maybe once in a while ... nor did i ever give Him my sweet 'good nights'. I never smiled at him when He did many caring and marvelous things for me. Oh!! i never considered Him what i should have ....

Life would have become so wonderful had i followed this earlier..yet its not late even now...

Am i right Jesus ???? :) 

I can start this today..from this very second.

You said it in the book of John.."in this world you will have many troubles, but be of good cheer..because i have overcome this world."

What a promise! I need not be worrying about my future, my needs or about any relationship.

Oh!! You have overcome everything !! Recently i have begun to pray this way...

" Lord!! may the level of relationships in my life be imbalanced !! always..."

What ?? imbalanced ..are you serious jesse ???

Surprised !! Yes that's what i mean it to be. 

Jesus should always be the occupant of the highest level of all relationships. It's only after Him that  others would get filled. Let it be anyone...even someone who is now very dear to me !!

Jesus first..... then the rest...!!

So always an imbalance. Never should this level be

straighten up, even after my marriage, even after i have a couple of kids :).....

Jesus 'THE highest' and then others....!!!

How can this be made possible ?? 

1) By having a close fellowship with Jesus. 2) By the power of the Holy Spirit.

                                           Fellowship !!!

Lord ! help me and let me have fellowship with people You have placed in my life..only up to the level set by You - not lower and definitely not higher.

My Parents, Uncle and Aunty, Sisters, friends and many other blood bought relatives in Christ.

Yes, Lord everyone has 'a place', a well defined place and each place constitutes certain privileges, certain restrictions, certain level of openness and certain level of reservedness. Lord, let me not define it...Let me yield to Your definition ..... Please, lest i fail and grieve the Holy Spirit who is my guide in matters of this life.

If I have deprived anyone of certain rights they should have as they constitute a particular 'level of fellowship', Lord give me light in this matter, and help me rectify it. Also if i have given someone much more then they ought to have, retrain me Lord...help me !!!

According to me .. the levels of fellowship are like 'streams of flowing water', flowing out from a mountain ... just like river Jordan flows out from Lebanon Mountain Range at Mount Hermon.

You are the mountain Lord, the HEAD..the SOURCE....and out of You flows these streams ..some large, some small, some fresh, some not much, some smooth and some rough!!

These streams flow over me ...i being 'the surface'..'the ground', over which they flow. These streams help me, nourish me, clean me up and also smoothen the rough surfaces.  

Oh ..wow !!

Lord....its so true .. in Your words once explained by Bro. Zac Poonen..."Holiness without fellowship with others is a deception." 

For a few years ..i did believe in the fake isolated holiness...that had a unique definition that 'i' could live a holy life..all by myself...it was all about i..i and i.

Then You Lord in Your mercy placed a horizontal bar upon me and the 'I' got transformed into a 'Cross'...

and now its all about taking up the Cross. This fellowship with the people at different levels, gives me numerous opportunities to rise higher and higher .. overcoming many weaknesses through Your strength.

I am the ground,

Upon which the streams flow

It makes my spirit sound,

alive and ever-glow.

How can i live this Christian life,

All alone without a company

In fellowship sweet, i find the joy 

peace, love and eternal symphony.

Thank You Lord, for creating me,

for this life that is artistic with twisty designs,

i can enjoy a heavenly life here on earth,

When i abide in Thee - the True Vine !!

A Different Value System

                          A Different Value System

Yes.. it is often misunderstood that believers shouldn't be adventurous, they should be serene, and their activities limited to being a member in the church choir group. Yet i do not very much agree to this value system as we believers can enjoy each and every sport that human beings have invented by the wisdom that they have received from God with the exemption of those sports that doesn't qualify this commandment - 'not to test God!'

What does that mean? Paul says that all things may be permissible yet not all things are profitable. Once in a while, its fine to enjoy a particular sport when God gives you the opportunity to do so, let it be the trilling sky diving or caving!!! The problem lies only when you use these sports for 'self gratification'. There shouldn't be anything or anyone in this world that would take control of your passion or will. You should not get addicted to it. You should be able to rule over every passion that you have, every desire, every hobby, every gift..every thing ........

That's the reason i quite often make it sure to buffet this body of mine...not as the world would do, by piercing it or wounding it. No ..no...not so !! By restricting certain daily permissible things to help this body understand that my joy lies in something much more than the mortal world could give me. 

This applies to wives and mothers as well..never to love their husbands or children more than the Creator Himself.

Our Creator is not a dictator....come on...He doesn't come approaching us with a whip saying .."love me !" He wants us to live the life to the fullest in this world .. 'yet be fruitful - by doing all things according to the will of the Father...'(John 15:8 and Matt 7:21)

As for me ...Jesus alone is my Tutor when it comes to riding a scooter, my Instructor while driving a car, my Guide in all other important matters of my life..and a very close Companion in  the decisions that i make about myself.

He always reminds me that even a step that i take without Him besides me, would only make me land in trouble. He helps me to take up each step of my personal life in the reverential fear of God, my Father..and His Father. Even every word that i use while chatting or sending SMS....He directs me like an English and Moral Science Teacher, making sure i give room to no ungodly statements..( Yes, i should admit that i sometimes slip here or there, quite often maybe ..yet He is faithful enough to pull me back to His side again ..)

Thus He takes care of every molecule of this body.. When He does sooooo much for me ..how selfish it would be on my part..if i begin to choose things for myself .. just to satisfy my desires...and not depend on Him for EVERYTHING.!!!

I will not offer ......... to the Lord my God .......that which costs me nothing!

      I will not offer ......... to the Lord my God .......that which costs me nothing.

It's now that Oh my Lord!  i truly understand this verse. Today i have received a deeper revelation of this verse from the Bible  through Bro. Zac Poonen. ( 2 Samuel 24:24)

Jesus my time, my energy, my strength, my money (my money??? Your money !!!), my youth everything Lord ...everything belongs to You. Let me hold on to nothing.

That's the reason i have noticed that You really favour Uncle's work. Because He gives His time..nearly 19-20 hours or maybe even more wholeheartedly for the Kingdom of God, that too in this age!!

There is another verse in the Bible that says do not be slothful in zeal, be fervent in Spirit. Serve the Lord. Oh Lord these are words of LIFE......

Never to give to the Lord, if it costs me nothing.

Such an offering will be greatly acceptable to You Lord. I see that !!!.....very clearly today.

That's why Jesus, You also mentioned it in Matt 11:12... "And from the days of John the Baptist until the present time, the kingdom of heaven has endured violent assault, and violent men seize it by force [as a precious prize--a share in the heavenly kingdom is sought with most ardent zeal and intense exertion]." 
               People who are lukewarm, slothful..would never be able to fulfill God's will in their lives. As i had mentioned it earlier in one of my posts..that God's will is not a particular act ..its a 'lifestyle'. This is a message to me also..because here i see how God blesses even the little ..wholehearted effort that we put into anything.
In my desire to learn Tamil, the first step that i had taken was - to sing the hymns in the Tamil language along with the believers in the church. That's how i began to learn Tamil alphabets, the pronunciation  and today can even type the alphabets. It's true that God blesses the little sincere efforts that we take.
Lord! may my heart always be sincere to You, sensitive to the Holy Spirit..and never be proud Lord!!
Help me to be humble by placing me into different circumstances so that i could receive Grace for my daily walk on earth. I still remember the words from the Bible through Bro. Zac, that almost all the Bible commentaries...have made a mistake in the definition of 'GRACE'....as being 'unmerited favour from God. This is a wrong definition - as Grace is not an unconditional-unmerited favour from God.

It is conditional  because the Bible clearly puts it in this way - that He gives His grace (Anugrah in Hindi) to the humble. This means if You aren't humble .. you will not receive Grace.....  
I can recall numerous occassions wherein a simple act of humility avoided great rubbings, confusions, strives and what not !!!
In one of my posts, i had mentioned.... 'the 10 commandments of Jesus'
The first being 'thou shalt rate yourself insignificant'.
May God give us the grace that we need ...
BE HUMBLE !!

                             God is in control of 'Your Past'

Yes, you heard it right, Our Heavenly Father is in control of even our past life. This was an entry in my personal diary dated 24th November 2013. It must have been that i was going through the life of King Hazekiah. One of the very few whole - heated kings after King David. He was the only one who had destroyed the altars placed on the hills. While later in his life, he was bed ridden and he prayed. God heard his prayer and a total of 15 years were added to his life. 

Now he wanted a sign from God and God did offer him two things.

 that the Shadow - 'which denotes the time of the day'....would either

1. Go forward ten steps or

2. Backward ten steps

King Hezekiah chose the second option. This was because going forward was quite an easy thing, for God to take care of our future is understandable. Yet, past ???? Can God take a control over our past ??? Is it possible ??

Yes, it was then God clearly made this truth known that He is the same Yesterday,Today and Forever.

Thank You Lord !!!

                 The Technological Explanation of being Saved !!!

I began my 5th diary yesterday, and thought of looking back to the earlier ones. It was then i came across this writing of mine somewhere written in the month of March 2013. I was amazed that the technological explanation of 'being saved' was very well said. After reading the Bible verse - 

1 Corinthians 1:18 ... For the story & the message of the cross is sheer absurdity and folly to those who are perishing and on their way to perdition, but to us who are 'being saved', it is the power of God. Being saved !!!

We quite often use the term .. are you saved ?? or is he/she saved ? 

What does being saved mean... i can compare it to the computer operation  -" save. " Unless a file is saved in the right format and until we see the 'save text bar' disappear, we cannot be sure that the file is saved or not. Agree ???

When we accept Christ as our Saviour .. we are being saved ...

On Christ's return or when we die which ever takes place first, we will then receive the certificate SAVED/UNSAVED. Until then even though we are 'being saved' at any point if we are not very careful, we might end up getting an error message and goshhhh .... the file is 'not saved' !!! We have lost the file ...oh noo!!

                          Who is Bro. Zac Uncle ??

This was the question I had asked my uncle two and a half year back, that's changed my life today. God in His great love and mercy wanted me to rectify certain area of my life that wasn't glorifying Him.

Yes, it was during the yearly sales by 'OM' book shop and as usual I loved to pick up some second hand Bibles and books. After  completing my treasure hunt, when we were about to bill the items, my eyes fell upon this DVD, 'The Light of God', English with Tamil translation. It was the first time I had seen Bro. Zac obviously His photograph was on the DVD cover and I asked my Uncle, "Uncle who is Bro. Zac Poonen?" To which he replied that Bro. Zac Poonen is a preacher who speaks very strongly on 'Holiness'. Oh ! wow that was what I needed the most...Please get me those !!! That was the beginning ...

I brought it home and began listening to the things said in the DVD, things  that  i was unaware of, for these many years ... I wanted more and searched online. One message after another, changed the entire perspective about my Spiritual life. Until then I was so sure I was right, I was spiritual. Today I can tell that it was God's mercy that in the time of my ignorance He was very much patient with me. Because let me make this clear here, that the things that I was doing then never  convicted me in any way. I couldn't remember many instances when my conscience was pricked. It could have been because I dint have the light then. Oh how miserable it would have been if I continued that way..somehow over the years I had began to think that

                                         Jesus = ministry of God ...... I was ready to sacrifice anything, absolutely anything for this ministry, including my family and loved ones. 

I was ready to do anything for this ministry...I was sincere and did almost all things fearing that if I did anything in a wrong way, God wouldn't use me, or I would lose my anointing. Most of the time my spirituality was only external. The age of 15-16 saw  a total of 180 degree change in my exterior looks, behavior etc. People were shocked, friends were confused and I was all happy thinking I was getting spiritual.... Yet the cup inside was still dirty, dirty to the core.

The truth's that I began to receive from God through Bro. Zac began the process of the internal cleansing. Most of the time it would be I and the computer screen alone ...for hours....listening ..listening .... It was during this time that I began reading the word of God more deeply and God began to reveal wonderful truth from His word.

There is miles to go before I sleep and many things yet to be mended...still I  am moving on.... The words specially about spiritual blindness and hypocrisy was what deeply touched me that  I began being  conscious of many of my acts that were purely hypocritical. Oh ! the love that saved me !!!

God bless Bro. Zac and Sis. Annie Poonen. Today I know that                                      

                                          Jesus=Jesus alone :)

As said by John Wesley “When I was young I was sure of everything; in a few years, having been mistaken a thousand times, I was not half so sure of most things as I was before; at present, I am hardly sure of anything but what God has revealed to me”

New areas in my life are being exposed by God today that need mending...God kept it away from me all these years knowing that I wasn't ready then. Oh Lord, help me pass this test tooo.