You alone are sufficient !!

 Lord, Your presence is sweetest,

            When i am broken;

Your strength is the strongest,

            When i am weakest oh Lord;

Let me be broken still,

      Let me be weak oh Lord;

that Your grace can be manifested

      Manifested in full.

Let me sink deeper in Your Love,

       Let me step further in Faith,

Lord Jesus ..the sole lover of my soul,

       Sole lover of my soul.

There is nothing that can suffice this emptiness,

        Just You alone could do,

When You are - In - Oh Lord,

       I have place for everyone...a place to bless everyone.

But the days when i am lonely,

    Are the days that went wrongly,

Because of not giving You the place,

  That i ought to - forgive me Lord..Jesus dear.

You are Everything - all sufficient,

     to my body, soul and spirit,

You are Everything - all sufficient,

     to my body, soul and spirit.

                                      Traveling !!

Yup !! the last post before a month long travel !! Almost all of my friends know that 'i love traveling'.  One of the thing that excites me is traveling..may be it a - chota auto ride or a lamba train travel. It  gives me immense pleasure. The best would be when i get to ride my scooter ..all alone..all by myself. I enjoy every breeze that strikes against my cheek. At times, when the road is empty especially the Adyar road, i kind of pick up my speed and enjoy when the air actually makes me float. Its then i feel like a 'car racer' :) !!! yet no competition here..i just enjoy the moment.

Yes...what about traveling long distances ... sometimes it does bring uneasiness in my guts. When i travel alone..all by myself i am reminded of the fact that ' no one ' can be a companion like Jesus who is willing to accompany me wherever i go ( definitely where He is willing me to go!!) While traveling  i often set my wattsap status as 'Jesus and jesse @ Salem', 'Jesus and jesse @ Kotagiri' or 'Jesus and jesse @ Bangalore' etc etc...

I think i need to stay close ..really close to His word these days .. John 16:33..only in Him (Jesus) i will have perfect peace and confidence!! Yes only in Jesus!! Just like on the mount of transfiguration Peter, James and John had  the glorious .. heavenly experience ..yet after everything said and done.. they could see 'Jesus ONLY'.

Yes..in this world i will have trails, tribulations, frustrations and what not..yet will be of good cheer coz Jesus has overcome the world ..In Him alone i will have peace ... may this promise deeply settle in every vein, tendon and morrow of my body.
And yes...i will take this peace from Him and like a moon reflects the light from the Sun, so shall i reflect this peace and confidence that i receive from the Sun/'SON'  and reflect it to the world !!!

                                                         Hi-five   Jesus!!! :)

                           Rain .. rain go away !!

This is a casual and short writeup that i wish to post. God listens to the most insignificant prayer, this thrills me and makes me stand in awe of His might and humility at the same time. 

Yesterday while i was drying piles of white clothes on the drying wire tied from one tree to another, i looked up to the sky and it was a cloudy day. The dark clouds were stretched across the sky and it looked like it would rain at any moment. I had so many clothes to be dried and these couldn't be accommodated inside the house, i prayed within myself..'enchanted a nursery rhyme......'

                                                                Rain..rain go away.. 

                                              Come again another day

                                                                jesse wishes to dry her clothes today

                                               Rain..o..rain go away !!!

and from above .... i received an 'Amen'. :)

                                   Jesus is a person !!!!

Yes !! Jesus is God and yet He is a person.... How can i treat Him as if He doesn't exist or as if He is only an 'On Demand Aladdin Genie'. No! not so!!

First of all, i have to myself repent of all the numerous occasions when i did not show Him the due respect that i would have easily shown to any person whether known or unknown.

For example when we speak to someone or even message someone, do we abruptly stop the conversation and get ourselves involved into something else .. No !!

We all have the courtesy to at least end the conversation by saying a 'Bye' or 'take care'. Yet when it comes to Jesus, we have taken things for granted. "If you will not consider Him as a person, He will also not be revealed to you as a person".

That was the mistake i was making for many years..i have innocently even cried in the name of Jesus...

Holy Spirit i know You..i can hear Your voice daily...!

Father i know You...i am witnessing Your love daily..!

Jesus..i don't know You as i should or as i see other Godly men and women do ...!!

Oh!! He never revealed Himself to me as a person because i never considered Him to be one..He was only God to me...By this i mean i knew that He was a person too..yet i never practiced it.

I never gave Him my daily 'Good mornings..' maybe once in a while ... nor did i ever give Him my sweet 'good nights'. I never smiled at him when He did many caring and marvelous things for me. Oh!! i never considered Him what i should have ....

Life would have become so wonderful had i followed this earlier..yet its not late even now...

Am i right Jesus ???? :) 

I can start this today..from this very second.

You said it in the book of John.."in this world you will have many troubles, but be of good cheer..because i have overcome this world."

What a promise! I need not be worrying about my future, my needs or about any relationship.

Oh!! You have overcome everything !! Recently i have begun to pray this way...

" Lord!! may the level of relationships in my life be imbalanced !! always..."

What ?? imbalanced ..are you serious jesse ???

Surprised !! Yes that's what i mean it to be. 

Jesus should always be the occupant of the highest level of all relationships. It's only after Him that  others would get filled. Let it be anyone...even someone who is now very dear to me !!

Jesus first..... then the rest...!!

So always an imbalance. Never should this level be

straighten up, even after my marriage, even after i have a couple of kids :).....

Jesus 'THE highest' and then others....!!!

How can this be made possible ?? 

1) By having a close fellowship with Jesus. 2) By the power of the Holy Spirit.

                                           Fellowship !!!

Lord ! help me and let me have fellowship with people You have placed in my life..only up to the level set by You - not lower and definitely not higher.

My Parents, Uncle and Aunty, Sisters, friends and many other blood bought relatives in Christ.

Yes, Lord everyone has 'a place', a well defined place and each place constitutes certain privileges, certain restrictions, certain level of openness and certain level of reservedness. Lord, let me not define it...Let me yield to Your definition ..... Please, lest i fail and grieve the Holy Spirit who is my guide in matters of this life.

If I have deprived anyone of certain rights they should have as they constitute a particular 'level of fellowship', Lord give me light in this matter, and help me rectify it. Also if i have given someone much more then they ought to have, retrain me Lord...help me !!!

According to me .. the levels of fellowship are like 'streams of flowing water', flowing out from a mountain ... just like river Jordan flows out from Lebanon Mountain Range at Mount Hermon.

You are the mountain Lord, the HEAD..the SOURCE....and out of You flows these streams ..some large, some small, some fresh, some not much, some smooth and some rough!!

These streams flow over me ...i being 'the surface'..'the ground', over which they flow. These streams help me, nourish me, clean me up and also smoothen the rough surfaces.  

Oh ..wow !!

Lord....its so true .. in Your words once explained by Bro. Zac Poonen..."Holiness without fellowship with others is a deception." 

For a few years ..i did believe in the fake isolated holiness...that had a unique definition that 'i' could live a holy life..all by myself...it was all about i..i and i.

Then You Lord in Your mercy placed a horizontal bar upon me and the 'I' got transformed into a 'Cross'...

and now its all about taking up the Cross. This fellowship with the people at different levels, gives me numerous opportunities to rise higher and higher .. overcoming many weaknesses through Your strength.

I am the ground,

Upon which the streams flow

It makes my spirit sound,

alive and ever-glow.

How can i live this Christian life,

All alone without a company

In fellowship sweet, i find the joy 

peace, love and eternal symphony.

Thank You Lord, for creating me,

for this life that is artistic with twisty designs,

i can enjoy a heavenly life here on earth,

When i abide in Thee - the True Vine !!

A Different Value System

                          A Different Value System

Yes.. it is often misunderstood that believers shouldn't be adventurous, they should be serene, and their activities limited to being a member in the church choir group. Yet i do not very much agree to this value system as we believers can enjoy each and every sport that human beings have invented by the wisdom that they have received from God with the exemption of those sports that doesn't qualify this commandment - 'not to test God!'

What does that mean? Paul says that all things may be permissible yet not all things are profitable. Once in a while, its fine to enjoy a particular sport when God gives you the opportunity to do so, let it be the trilling sky diving or caving!!! The problem lies only when you use these sports for 'self gratification'. There shouldn't be anything or anyone in this world that would take control of your passion or will. You should not get addicted to it. You should be able to rule over every passion that you have, every desire, every hobby, every gift..every thing ........

That's the reason i quite often make it sure to buffet this body of mine...not as the world would do, by piercing it or wounding it. No ..no...not so !! By restricting certain daily permissible things to help this body understand that my joy lies in something much more than the mortal world could give me. 

This applies to wives and mothers as well..never to love their husbands or children more than the Creator Himself.

Our Creator is not a dictator....come on...He doesn't come approaching us with a whip saying .."love me !" He wants us to live the life to the fullest in this world .. 'yet be fruitful - by doing all things according to the will of the Father...'(John 15:8 and Matt 7:21)

As for me ...Jesus alone is my Tutor when it comes to riding a scooter, my Instructor while driving a car, my Guide in all other important matters of my life..and a very close Companion in  the decisions that i make about myself.

He always reminds me that even a step that i take without Him besides me, would only make me land in trouble. He helps me to take up each step of my personal life in the reverential fear of God, my Father..and His Father. Even every word that i use while chatting or sending SMS....He directs me like an English and Moral Science Teacher, making sure i give room to no ungodly statements..( Yes, i should admit that i sometimes slip here or there, quite often maybe ..yet He is faithful enough to pull me back to His side again ..)

Thus He takes care of every molecule of this body.. When He does sooooo much for me ..how selfish it would be on my part..if i begin to choose things for myself .. just to satisfy my desires...and not depend on Him for EVERYTHING.!!!

I will not offer ......... to the Lord my God .......that which costs me nothing!

      I will not offer ......... to the Lord my God .......that which costs me nothing.

It's now that Oh my Lord!  i truly understand this verse. Today i have received a deeper revelation of this verse from the Bible  through Bro. Zac Poonen. ( 2 Samuel 24:24)

Jesus my time, my energy, my strength, my money (my money??? Your money !!!), my youth everything Lord ...everything belongs to You. Let me hold on to nothing.

That's the reason i have noticed that You really favour Uncle's work. Because He gives His time..nearly 19-20 hours or maybe even more wholeheartedly for the Kingdom of God, that too in this age!!

There is another verse in the Bible that says do not be slothful in zeal, be fervent in Spirit. Serve the Lord. Oh Lord these are words of LIFE......

Never to give to the Lord, if it costs me nothing.

Such an offering will be greatly acceptable to You Lord. I see that !!!.....very clearly today.

That's why Jesus, You also mentioned it in Matt 11:12... "And from the days of John the Baptist until the present time, the kingdom of heaven has endured violent assault, and violent men seize it by force [as a precious prize--a share in the heavenly kingdom is sought with most ardent zeal and intense exertion]." 
               People who are lukewarm, slothful..would never be able to fulfill God's will in their lives. As i had mentioned it earlier in one of my posts..that God's will is not a particular act ..its a 'lifestyle'. This is a message to me also..because here i see how God blesses even the little ..wholehearted effort that we put into anything.
In my desire to learn Tamil, the first step that i had taken was - to sing the hymns in the Tamil language along with the believers in the church. That's how i began to learn Tamil alphabets, the pronunciation  and today can even type the alphabets. It's true that God blesses the little sincere efforts that we take.
Lord! may my heart always be sincere to You, sensitive to the Holy Spirit..and never be proud Lord!!
Help me to be humble by placing me into different circumstances so that i could receive Grace for my daily walk on earth. I still remember the words from the Bible through Bro. Zac, that almost all the Bible commentaries...have made a mistake in the definition of 'GRACE'....as being 'unmerited favour from God. This is a wrong definition - as Grace is not an unconditional-unmerited favour from God.

It is conditional  because the Bible clearly puts it in this way - that He gives His grace (Anugrah in Hindi) to the humble. This means if You aren't humble .. you will not receive Grace.....  
I can recall numerous occassions wherein a simple act of humility avoided great rubbings, confusions, strives and what not !!!
In one of my posts, i had mentioned.... 'the 10 commandments of Jesus'
The first being 'thou shalt rate yourself insignificant'.
May God give us the grace that we need ...
BE HUMBLE !!